Natural Laws

I’ve been thinking about that III of pentacles. It’s all about collaboration. Really anything you do, you are in collaboration with someone. I’ve been thinking of the source of my direction, which comes from somewhere inside my own head. It’s as if I am in relationship to and having an ongoing conversation with someone or something that is leading me where to go. Since I read about the soul-land that exists between the internal and external worlds, I’ve reframed the validity of my experience in regard to this ongoing conversation. I think it must be a conversation with my soul. My soul is my connection to the mystery that is bigger than my individual life. The universe is governed by natural laws (eg. gravity, cellular division, etc.). There just happen to be natural laws still outside of our awareness. Maybe there are natural laws that govern the rebirth of the soul?

I went to see a guy I know from Kindergarten. I saw him once before at the KFOG 4th of July holiday party in SF. There were thousands of people there. I was coming out of one of the numerous port-o-potties. As I stood in the doorway about to walk down to the grass, I heard someone say my name. I saw a couple standing on the grass below me. I vaguely recognized the guy. The girl with him turns to him and says “That’s Sonja?” She sounded incredulous. I did not recognize her at all. It turns out that just that morning they had been talking about their first crush. He had told his girlfriend about a girl named Sonja in his Kindergarten class. All of sudden, here I was coming out of a port-a-potty right before their eyes. That was about ten years ago.

I reconnected with this Kindergarten friend again this year. He is a musician and would send me updates on upcoming concerts. I decided to go to one in SF. It was in this great little cafe in my old neighborhood in SF. He performed with his girlfriend. It was a poignant evening. They were facing imminent separation. His girlfriend’s visa extension had been denied. She was going to have to go back to Australia. The show was beautiful. I was so moved by the mystical and emotional quality of their music together. I just couldn’t think of them being apart.

I talked with both after the show. I felt very connected with his girlfriend, like she was a kindred spirit. I bought their CD’s and listened to them for days as I drove around in the car. Every time I would put on her CD, I would just feel better, like I was not alone in the world, like there are other people who travel the earth in the hazy mystery-land in between. I went on Facebook to see her profile and thank them both for the show. Our interests were surprisingly similar. I could see we did indeed have the same general orientation toward life.

All this made me really happy and lead me to some of the above thoughts about natural laws governing rebirth of the soul. It’s as if my Kindergarten friend came into the world knowing exactly who he was and what he wanted. He was just waiting for his life to play it out. A few days later my friends were listed as Married! on Facebook. Indeed, he could not let her go.